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grrrrr
Cousin Time=gross
inappropriate efforts to engage in phone sex=GROSS
egggh *gag*
still feeling weird about Hayden. does he like me? does he want a relationship with me? does he actually not even think any of this stuff??
i think we stay in bad situations partly to show how strong we really are. sad.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Braden.
i told Cousin Time i met a new boy and he said "how did you meet him?" and i said "i found him on craigslist." lol and he laughed and said "what? i mean--i've found like, used bicycles on craigslist... but how do you find a boy on there?"
braden seems cool so far. he's hilarious. he reminds me of not-stock Ben from work cuz he seems smart, but he acts really dorky.
frank's a fucker. i still hate him. but i told him i'd buy him a christmas present. ugh. why do i still talk to him if i hate him? well, i love him too. and i feel like my hate for him does nothing good except keep me from being too forgiving. which is very good. because i've done way too much of that. he is a fucked up kid, he needs help.
[protected post] [Dec. 5th, 2006|05:05 pm]
Death was just a simple glance across a dim lit room
And those eyes did it
Those three words did it
Those three words killed him
And I surrender to it all
Between you and me, I surrender to you
Forgive me for the sadness
And the bringing of you down
I just needed a lover and I needed a friend
And there you were
Running from forever like all the rest
Three simple words bled me dry
Three simple word bled us dry, bled us dry
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
sadji;dfaj;iafsaj;iodsj;oidsfjaidsjo;iaf
UGrrrGHAREAWEFSDJFFUUUCCCCCKKKK
[protected post] christmas [Dec. 20th, 2006|09:55 pm]
i'm finding myself contemplating frank's proposals again. not considering accepting. but still sad about the fact that i can't.
i'm going to "L-bomb" kaden when he comes back from utah.
this may be a disaster. it may be ok.
i have no job. i don't plan on getting one soon.
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[protected post] merry christmas [Dec. 26th, 2006|02:06 am]
hello
sometimes i feel like a douche for the things i write in here. but sometimes you really need to write shit down.
i don't know how much i've charged on my credit card. i don't want to find out. but i need to pay bills with it.
my dad made me cry because he saw me playing my new game super princess peach and asked me if i really had the money to be buying stuff like that.
i'm dropping kaden the big L Bomb in two days. one day, sort of. since today's technically tuesday eh?
i'm getting fat.
well, i'm going to go play with my dogs now.
i want to be someone else.
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