what i ended up bringing with me what i ended up leaving behind:
mid calf brown boots, knee high black boots, purple ankle boots, black patent calfhair wedges, black ballet flats, running shoes, underwear, bras, fur coat, fur lined hooded jacket, magenta jacket, other assorted jackets and blazers, leggings, jeans, two short sleeved turtlenecks, trapeze tops, dresses, a painting that's a gift for the bf, a miniature broom and dustpan (housewarming gift), glass photo coasters (another housewarming gift), four hats, scarves, long black leather gloves, short black leather gloves, cream cashmere fingerless gloves, shampoo, *conditioner (still need to buy), face wash, body wash, hair products, hair accessories, makeup, straight iron, curling iron, ipod, books, magazines, airplane snacks, wallet, passport, sunglasses, contact lenses and cases, glasses, robe, nintendo ds, digital camera, rechargeable batteries + charger, camera cable, ds charger ....


what i've purchased here:
3 drawer acrylic organizer for makeup, hello kitty pajamas, weird sweatshirt, fake nails, rubber nail charms, sketch pad, two graph paper notebooks, 3 pens, 3 sable brushes, watercolors, f cup cookies (did not work), camouflage pet sling carrier for my dog, blue squeaky pig dog toy, panda parka for dog, yellow circle sunglasses, weird flip up sunglasses as gift for craigslistwhore ...


still on my list: gifts for friends and fam, heel saddle shoes like the bally ones i wanted from nordstrom but $550 cheaper, more stuff for my dog

i'm in japan now. the diet coke here is but a mere shadow of the diet coke in the states. i wonder what european diet coke is like.

i'm watching dreamgirls right now. the man is out and about til later tonight. it's about six and i had dinner consisting of pineapple, pasta salad and those deep fried creamy crabby things.

since last night when i arrived i've already decided this was most definitely a bad idea. i'm not opposed to knowingly walking into bad decisions, however. because everything's an experience. and my current philosophy is that

life is not a timeline.

it's more like a rubberband ball.

tomorrow craigslistwhore is picking me up and taking me to seattle where i'm staying until tuesday. tuesday i fly to tokyo. i'm excited to get out of here. living with my parents is draining.

the prescriptions i'm taking (ortho evra, effexor and seroquel) are not treating me well. for some reason i am bleeding when i shouldn't be. i can't feel my face or my arms or my legs. and i feel completely out of it. i'm more moody than usual and i can't help but feel overwhelmed by despair.

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i can't fit everything i want to take into my luggage. necessities include: mid calf brown boots, knee high black boots, purple ankle boots, black patent calfhair wedges, black ballet flats, running shoes, underwear, bras, fur coat, fur lined hooded jacket, magenta jacket, other assorted jackets and blazers, leggings, jeans, two short sleeved turtlenecks, trapeze tops, dresses, a painting that's a gift for the bf, a miniature broom and dustpan (housewarming gift), glass photo coasters (another housewarming gift), four hats, scarves, long black leather gloves, short black leather gloves, cream cashmere fingerless gloves, shampoo, *conditioner (still need to buy), face wash, body wash, hair products, hair accessories, makeup, straight iron, curling iron, ipod, books, magazines, airplane snacks, wallet, passport, sunglasses, contact lenses and cases, glasses, robe, nintendo ds, digital camera, rechargeable batteries + charger, camera cable, ds charger ....

i have to go let my dog in.